When I was a child, and had questions, I knew who had all the answers. My parents. When I was a young mother, and my children had questions, I could usually give them answers. It was easier than I expected...they didn't want long drawn out explanations, simple answers that made sense was all they were after.
Now, I'm ascared. I can answer small questions, but god help me, the big ones scare me half to death. I don't know the answers sometimes. I just don't.
Not for my family, and not for my friends. I wish I did. I wish I could just say.. oh yes, of course, this is why.. and explain things so that they make sense, and stop the pain. To stop the wondering, the what ifs and indecision.
The questions are different. The problems are harder, and I'm a lot older.
I don't have the answers. Maybe if they'd been asked of me when I was 16 and thought I knew it all...
Posted by juel at October 4, 2003 10:28 PM