I'm hearing it's supposed to rain now for five straight days. I suppose that means flooding for much of this area. I hope Sarah doesn't get caught behind flood water and go into labor. Wouldn't that be the pits?
Bonnie and I were on the patio last night, just talking - and the Katie-Dids started buzzing away up in the trees in the woods behind the house. That's the first sign for me that summer is almost over. Mid July and summer almost over.
Mikyla will be starting school in a few weeks. That just seems unbelievable. She spent the night last night, and had her make up, she said that she had to use it because then the boys would think she's beautiful. She wanted to put it on me too, told me the boys would think I'm beautiful too, but I told her I didn't want them to, so she decided that everyone would think I'm a star if I had on some make up, so she made me all beautiful and starry. I'm gonna miss her when she starts school.
Joel was getting into everything last night. By midnight they were still here and he was still going strong, so I scooped him up and told him it was time to quiet down. I held him tightly in the swing, trying to get him to go to sleep. The way I had him in my arms, he had no balance so couldn't push himself away. He mumbled, "I want down" I said, "No, Joel, you close your eyes and rest your bones now, you're wearing Mammy out." He sat there quietly for a few minutes then took a deep breath and yelled out in the loudest, strongest voice, "HELP!"
I couldn't help it, that cracked me up. I didn't even know he knew the word 'help', much less when to use it. That kid's a cracker jack.
Mom, Dad, Lisa and Nick took the boat out yesterday. Nick caught a rainbow trout, that's pretty cool. I hope the seats were comfortable. I'm glad the weather held out for them because it was cloudy and looked like it was gonna start storming all day. I worried about that, and they didn't have the Nextels with them to check on them. Flubber wouldn't let them take her Nextel. Some folks just don't seem to want to look out for anyone but themselves. So it goes.
I'd have given them mine.
My aunt called yesterday, just to say hi and let me know what's going on up that way. We got to talking about my grand-dad, he's 82 and pretty much a wild man these days. I think he's getting too bad now to be able to be alone much longer, and God knows he's too mean to move into any of our houses with us, so it's not gonna be too much longer when a decision has to be made to move him into a nursing home.
Typically, I don't believe in those things, but in some circumstances, they're a necessity. For him, thank God there are such places. He's beginning to terrorize the other residents in his apartment building, just basic bullying and mean mouthing them. A few, he's drawn his cane on, and I don't think people there are going to put up with that kind of behavior for very long.
How sad. How very sad to be so miserable and mean that you just feel like being a tyrant all the time. How sad to be so hateful that no one wants you around. How very sad to know that he's so sullen and mean that he just can't seem to find any joy in anything. I have all these kids here, I can't begin to imagine what hell he'd make life for us if he came here. Nor can I imagine anyone else moving him in with them, for that same nightmarish treatment in their homes.
I hope his kids realize that when the time comes, they have no choice, and understand that it's for his own good, and all the rest of ours. No guilt, no blame, just a necessary solution to a terribly sad situation. God please don't let me become ill natured and violent in my twilight years like that.
Posted by juel at July 11, 2005 12:52 PM