Juel's Journal

And the...last...for last.

My last entry tonight is sad for me, we had so many 'lasts'. This day went by so fast. I guess it was knowing that it was the last one we had before our comfortable, safe, secure, happy, play-filled lives were interrupted by kindergarten. I tried hard to stretch it out, and it was a good day. We made a few more memories, and I took a few more pictures. I confess, I couldn't help it, once in a while I got all teary eyed realizing that this was it...

... the last batch of cookies at the table before Mikyla has to start staying home for school...

That old table never looked lonlier to me than it did with our crumbs sitting there on empty plates, the chairs pushed back, the kids finished with their cookies...

We had one more game of hide and seek...

...their last bubble bath (just for fun, not for the clean of it, though the clean of it part was pretty helpful)

...and last but not least, one more bag of popcorn, and one more movie.. "Benji" was the movie Mikyla picked for tonight...

The movie's over, Mallory is sleeping, and Mikyla is watching 'Full House', waiting for me before she will be able to sleep. Joel's gone home and the house is quiet now.

I can't begin to express how lost I feel. The past 5 years have been so good. So very good. This child, my first grandchild, has been such a joy. Every day taught me something new, something fresh and wonderful - about myself, about her, about others in our family, about human nature. I know that special times with her aren't over, not completely...just her earliest days... before school and routine, and 'best friends' and little girl responsibilities have arrived to help her grow up into a young woman.

Five wonderful years. And I didn't waste a second. I love you, Mikyla.

Posted by juel at August 8, 2005 01:01 AM