February 29, 2008
The Girls..
They're laying here ready to go to sleep, sing songing a rhyme..
"Inky Winky Bonky, Daddy had a donkey - Donkey died, daddy cried, inky winky bonky."
Maegan, not to be outdone, repeated it:
"Inky Winky Bonky, Daddy had a donkey, the donkey bit him!"
February 28, 2008
999-999-9999
This number called here today but hung up when the answering machine kicked on. I can't reach them though to see what they wanted.. it's not a working number.. so, curious, I googled it.
*laughs*
It's the death call.
I'm so glad the answering machine got it. I'm too busy for death right now!
Guess What Lisa Brought Me!
She came in this evening with the prettiest pink girly girl cell phone for me! How cool is that?! She got it with the internet, a camera.. I can download songs, it's an mp3 player, has these little ear phones.. how cool!! Thanks, Lisa, that was awfully nice of you! I LOVE IT!!
February 27, 2008
Car Wreck
This past Sunday morning, mom and I were talking and I told her I had to go fix breakfast.. then I asked her if she wanted to come eat with us. She said yes, and we invited Lisa and Nick, they said yes too, so I went to cook and while I was getting breakfast ready the phone rang. Talk about a scary call. It was Lisa and I could tell from her voice something was wrong. She was talking so calmly.. but I could hear screaming, I thought it was kids screaming...and she said "Juel, don't worry.. there's been a wreck, but we're okay." I asked her was she involved, but she didn't answer, she just said, "Here's Mom."
She was calling from her cell phone.
When Mom got the phone, for some reason she didn't know I was on it. She didn't talk, she just must have been trying to help the people and all I could hear were the screams. I started shaking, just sure they were in a bad one, because Lisa hadn't answered me, I thought she evaded answering me. I was listening hard trying to hear Nick, but couldn't..
After about 5 minutes, Mom hung the phone up and I couldn't hear anything else. In a few minutes Mom called me back, and told me what had happened.
She, Lisa and Nick turned off of their road and there was the wreck. They were the 2nd people on the scene, some other young couple were trying to help. They told Mom and Lisa that the young guy in the black Bronco had been driving erratically, crossing the center line for a while down the road, he'd almost hit several cars when finally there at the bridge he hit a little truck head on. Thankfully it wasn't full of kids, the screaming I'd heard was an elderly man and his wife. They were in the little truck. The guy in the Bronco was unconscious.
Lisa and Mom tried to calm the woman, she was in pain, said her back was killing her, the airbag was in her face, and she was slumped down almost in the floor begging them to pull her up, but they were afraid to move her because of her back pain. Her husband was too addled to really understand anything, they said he just kept saying he had to get out of there. The truck was so damaged though they couldn't get him out. When the fire dept got there they had to get them out with the jaws of life.
I'd have been a wreck. I asked mom if she had her camera, I don't know why, that's just my first impulse, take a picture. She said she did in fact have it and she hung up to get pictures. She sent them to me and I forgot to post them until now. I wont post them all because she got shots of the injured people, all of it. I just want to show you how badly those vehicles were damaged.
They flew the young guy to Lexington, The woman died later that day in the hospital, but we've not heard how her husband or the young guy are doing.
The young fella was seen driving erratically.. flying.. crossing the yellow line. I don't know if he was drinking, or on drugs, or what was going on with him, but if he was driving under the influence of something, I hope they put him where he can't do anything like that again.
Fair Warning...
There was no school today. So much snow (for us, anyway) and it's blustery cold. I.. wickedly got them up early anyway - and now they're tired...so, the warning is.. we're all about 20 minutes away from taking a midafternoon, winter's nap!
Uc oh. Maegan just found Mallory's secret stash of leftover Valentine candy. There's a little heart shaped box still wrapped, and Maegan handed it to me, "Open it for me, Mammy." "I can't Maegan, that's not yours, that's Mallory's." "Open it for Mallory, Mammy." *laughs* Lordy she's smart.
February 26, 2008
Tell Me A Story
Dad, It's been 7 months. Long months - and you know nothing's the same. I'm not going to yammer at you about missing you and how lonely and wrong this feels, you already know all that.
I just wanted to say I love you. And to tell you it's snowing. And to let you know that Mikyla was crying, wanting to talk to you last night. I put your pillow case on her pillow and she was okay then. She said it still smells like you. I told Mom what she said and Mom laughed because it had been washed and put in the closet there for months now before she gave it to me. But.. whatever brings Mikyla comfort, right?
Lisa and Mom saw a horrible car wreck day before yesterday, sent me pics from the Mavica and the cell phone. Head on thing, they heard the two older folks died, but I don't know. If they did, I bet you know, don't you.
It was raining earlier today, but that's turned into the prettiest, gentle falling snow. It feels cleaner somehow, being snow.
Some girl took Nick's tie off of him at the dance the other night. How you would have loved to harrass him for that. I tried to do it properly but I didn't do it anywhere near as good as you would have.
Mallory's Depakote level is fine, she's been to her allergist, she's allergic to dustmites, cats, dogs, pine trees (yeah great, eh?) and cockroaches. No food allergies at all, she can (and does) eat anything she wants. She doesn't have allergies badly enough to require shots, just a nasal spray and an Alavert every day. She's doing good Dad. She still wants to talk about you, and sometimes she says the oddest thing, that she wishes it was the day of your funeral again. I asked her why the first time she said it, she said, "Then I could just see him one more time."
Maegan's getting shy and backwards with everyone. She doesn't want to be anywhere or go anywhere, but with me. Even to the bathroom. I know that's normal for kids her age, she's just growing up. She'll be three in August. It seems impossible doesn't it. I remember when you were trying to coax her to walk for you.
Joel, he's the same. Fast talking ladie's man. He still remembers you, and when I ask him what you said about me, he always answers, "That you're full of shit." I don't think he'll ever forget that. He says he's tired of everyone going to heaven. The poor kid. Between our side and Kelly's side, I think there were five funerals within a span of three or four weeks. Way too many.
As for Tristan, well, you knew him before we did, so I can't really tell you anything about him that you don't already know. Just that he's a beautiful little boy, you'd have had a ball out of him. He's a doll.
Bonnie's doing alright. Busy with the boys, school and her life. She checks in on me every day, if she doesn't come by.
Sarah, well not much has changed with Sarah. We've not heard from her since Thursday night. I hope she's alright. If you can, maybe you could look in on her, say a good hard "BOO!" and scare the living shit out of her. *laughs* I like the thought of that. She kept asking me if I thought you were proud of her. It'd be nice if you could go tell her yourself. Up close and personal.
As for Mom.. well she's doing okay, getting by. I worry about her, I don't get to be there with her nearly as much as I need to be. I wish summer would come and school would let out now so that we could spend time there. I know the kids are looking forward to the pool, and Mom is too. Lisa said something about Mom having big plans for all of us to do some major yard work. God, Dad, what you wouldn't do to get out of yard work.
Well, I have to go now. I do miss you Dad, very much. Catch you next time. G'nite.
100 Cards - A Quiz
Hey Bonnie, I got all your cards last night but I was tired, went to bed and saved them for today. That was so neat and a ton of fun to go through.. thank you!! How cool! Boy did I feel loved. :)
Now.. we both know there's going to be a quiz.. and so.. I've studied, studied, studied! *laughs* See?
(if anyone's reading this as I'm working on this post, hang in there, I still have a LOT of editing to do - thanks!)
Well thank you, I always enjoy getting ecards, how nice of you, Bonnie! I love you too!
Aww.. t'weren't nothin', Ma'am, I'm sure if I needed you, you'd be right there for me too. :) Love you too, Bonnie!
How strange that they all had that same one. When you and Sarah put me in a nursing home, I hope you get me that print of the dogs playing cards instead, ok? hehe, I love you too, Bonnie!
Oh yes, I miss you too. I miss the boys. I miss Joel yammering at me. lol! It wont be long and it'll be warmed up and Joel can play in the "yard park". I hope this summer is better than the last one was. It was thundering some last night, I thought of you. Pretty soon we'll be on the porch again, watching it rain. Not tonight though, tonight it's sooo cold, and it's snowing. I don't think there's gonna be any school tomorrow. I love you too Bonnie.
I'm sorry I didn't open them last night, I was so sleepy I couldn't keep my eyes open, but what a treat this morning, thank you, I love you too, Bonnie!
Yep! I was ready! *laughs* Now are you ready for 100 replies? Love you too.
You know I love fairys! I just can't spell fairys. You didn't torment me at all, I enjoyed my cards.. as you can see, I'm using my journal for a gigantic refridgerator, and I've put up every card with a cyber-magnet! I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Today is yesterday's tomorrow. I hope you had a good one. I love you.
Yes, this is fun. *laughs* Gotta love Eyeore. Of course I didn't delete them, I read every one of 'em! Harumph! I love you too Bon.
How on earth did you keep count of all the cards? A tally sheet? I love you too. :)
I appreciate the good night, I slept good for a couple of hours. Love you too. :)
I know Bon, I know. And you didn't drive me crazy.. I still have most of the things you drew.. the wolf at the computer smoking is still my favorite. :) I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Yep, that background is really soft and feminine looking. What's new with me, let's see. My bronchitis is gone, but you know that from the phone... I need a hair cut.. but you know that from visiting. *laughs* Aside from what happens with Mom, Dips, and the girls, nothing's new with me, I'm just boring, I don't know what else to say. I love you though. :)
Well, this one with the 4 angels is pretty too. Thank you so much, what a treat! I love you too. :)
Yeah, like those birthday parties, with balloons and streamers and pink paper and bows on the presents on the table and all our relatives around to sing, that was wonderful. I'm glad you have good memories of being a child. That makes me happy. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
You know, I haven't been on Angelfire in years. I stopped that after I learned to do my own site and code and use cute ftp. I don't get to spend as much time on my computer as I used to... I used to love to play spades, I do once in a while now, but not enough to even be good enough to win. *laughs* My only wins these days are force forfiets. How sad is that? I love you too, Bonnie. :)
HEY!! Most everyone else doesn't like us? I didn't know that, I want names, I want to know who! Why! Tell me! I'll put on the coffee. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Aw, I'm sorry you feel like that sometimes. I do once in a while too. I think everyone does. I love you too. :)
*laughs* Yeah, Yeah, I deleted your words.. they were too graphic for my journal. But yeah, that's cute. Love you too Bonnie.
Noway! I didn't get a bit annoyed! I loved them, they sure gave me something to look forward to today, today was a tough day and your cards made me smile, and sometimes laugh right out loud. Thank you so much. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
This one was unfair. That little tile at the left got stuck and then the puzzle froze so I couldn't finish it. But it was fun anyway. Thank you. I love you too, Bonnie! :)
I will pray for peace tonight. I promise. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Well thank you, I'm glad you like them. I try, anyway. I just enjoy taking candid shots of the kids, that's fun..and my cemetery pics. Soon, the weather will be nice and I can go do that again. I'm looking forward to that too. I've missed it and am tired of being inside so much. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
I love that card shop, I think she has a few of the tunes from Zelda. I love you too, and I will pray for peace tonight. I promise. I love you too, Bonnie :)
Oh shoot, I forgot you ran out of white. I was going to go get you some and forgot all about it. I'd sure like to have that painting done, it's pretty! I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Aha, a duplicate! I love you too, Bonnie!
Mine does too. It's getting so it doesn't want to come back, and that worries me. :) I love you too, Bon!
Yep, and Joel and Tristan up on the fence! No, I can NOT wait 'till summer. I love you too, Bonnie! Thanks for the card(s)
When I was young, Mom told me to keep a journal all of my life. I got out a notebook and dated every page for a year.. 1971, 1972, all the way up to 1999. I remember saying to myself. I'll be so old by then I won't be able to see to write. So I didn't bother with any year past that one. *laughs* No, I never dreamed back then I'd be knockin' on the door of 50 now. Egads, time flies. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Squirrelly! Yes, why yes you are.. but, the nut doesn't fall far from the tree. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
*laughs* Boys will be boys. No.. wait.. Maegan did that the other day too. Kids will be kids. But.. EW! Love you too, Bonnie. :)
No, they just make it more tolerable. *laughs* Love you too!
Cute cat. I miss you too. Love you right back :)
Hello again.. yes, I do sometimes just search for answers to things I've always wanted to know. Gooo Google! I love you too, Bon :)
Aw, I'm glad. But.. do you know another Mammy? I love you too Bonnie!
Sometimes I do, and other times I don't know it at all. But thank you for saying that, that made me feel good. I love you too, Bonnie :)
Yep, I did, and as of right now, I'm answering every card. *laughs* So I can pass the quiz. I sure hope I get a good grade. You...are going to give me a grade for this, right? I love you too, Bonnie. :)
Those were some pretty tough hormones. You know, I ...I'd.. I wish I could say I'd go back if I could, but NO THANKS!! *laughs* Nah, it wasn't so bad, just 'payin' for my raisin'' as some would say. I love you too, Bonnie.
It's pretty music. I love you too, Bonnie. :)
I don't know how on earth you kept track of them.. I'm still trying to figure that out. I love you too, Bonnie :)
That's easy for a cardmaker to say isn't it. Let him or her have a house full of kids and try to slow down. That'll teach them! I love you too Bonnie. :)
Okay, I'll try to remember that about your machine. I love you too, Bonnie :)
Yep, raccoons are cute. I love you too, Bonnie :)
It's just past midnight now. I bet the baby's sleeping. I love you too. :)
Like what cool things? If I can do it you can too! I love you too. :)
*beams!* I know, I know, look at all these cards!! I love you too! :)
I made some last week, but it was syrupy and didn't get firm. That so sucked cuz we all had our mouths ready for it. Maybe it'll turn out better next time. I love you too. :)
I do, I do, I do! Do you too?
Nope, still reading and still replying! Love you too :)
2 more months, right? I can't wait!
Someone thought of me ALOT last night, thank you so much! I love you too!!
Oh I would LOVE that. You know, right on the sidewalk at Mom's, it's perfect for star gazing, there are billions there, and I've always wanted to go up there to see better. Maybe we can get a good one this year. I love you too. :)
I was sleeping, but it's 12:22, I'm still up tonight. I don't think the girls will have school tomorrow, do you? I love you too. :)
I can't wait for you to take it too, that's gonna be fascinating! It won't be long now. I love you too. :)
Second verse!! Same as the first!!!
Whatever happened to those little chairs, they were adorable. I love you too, Bonnie :)
I don't know, I didn't keep track. The image number on the file says 59.. but I think I named them wrong. I don't know how you kept up with them. I don't know when he's going.. I'll have to find out. I love you too. :)
Thanks for the thought, I did get well, what a coincidence!! lol I love you too. :)
I made spaghetti last night, hot dogs tonight.. I don't know what we'll have tomorrow.. probably chicken. :) Want some? I love you too.. :)
It'd be nice to go fishing again wouldn't it. We've never taken Maegan, I'd like to do that. She'll be big enough this summer to get a kick out of it I think. We'll all go, okay? I love you too Bonnie.
*laughs* Yeah, I completely understand. I spend almost every day around here wishing it was bedtime. HA! I love you too, Bonnie :)
It stormed a little last night, it was thundery anyway.. tonight it's snowing. It's calming. I forgot how calming snow can be. I love you too. :)
And I bet your hands are STILL numb!! I love you too :)
I shouldn't be, but I'm getting hungry. This file name says 66. But.. I know I messed up somewhere. I love you too. :)
I knew it!! I KNEW there'd be a quiz!! Hot DANG I'm ready and I want my grade!! I love you too Bonnie :)
*laughs* Yeah, but I swear I think they're making classics out of movies that are 2 years old and older these days, I SWEAR I do! Love you too, Bonnie :)
I'm still replying to all of your beautiful cards. I love you too, Bonnie :) and.. yeah, I'm glad too.. NO WHY-AH HANGAHS!! NO WHY-AH HANGAHS, EVAH!!!
Well, I'm doing pretty well.. though I must say I'm hungry. I wasn't hungry 20 minutes ago, and suddenly, I'm ravenously hungry. Starving. I bet I could eat a whole bucket of hotwings all by myself right about now! I love you too, Bonnie :)
Aw, they were wonderful, thanks for Mammy day, that was fun! I love you too, Bonnie. :)
*laughs* Oh it does, yes.. but don't think that 100 cards now mean you don't have to answer my emails anymore! I love you too, Bonnie.
If you could play a flute for me, I'd letcha. I always heard that if someone was playing a wind instrument, and someone else sat there facing them, while sucking on a lemon, the person playing the instrument wouldn't be able to play for puckering. I always wanted to take a lemon and go to a concert to see. *laughs* I'm sooo curious about that. I could try it on Nick when he plays his Sax, couldn't I? I love you too. :)
I know. You love them.. but it's always nice to get a break. I love you too, Bonnie :)
You bet wrong.. I read every single one of 'em and then saved them all to boot, so there! I love you too. :)
Did he sleep through? I love you too. :)
You know, I don't think I knew that. How do you know? I love you too. :)
I think you did. I still have a screenshot of it somewhere..
Nope, I tolja, I'm answering every one of 'em! Love you too :)
I did.. I really did.. I hope you did too. :)
Yes, I'm sorry you got worried, I was sleeping. I heard an ambulance earlier last night and a helicoptor.. I figured there'd been a wreck but I'd just talked to you and mom and Lisa, so I knew everyone was in and safe then I went to bed. I love you too. :)
I'm home now. :)
I'm sorry.. I never go to bed that early but I was tired last night. I love you though :)
Yes, she did. He was an ap.. app.. appaloosa.. ever how that's spelled, and he was mean. He would kick and bite, and I HATED it when Sarah got around him. I can't remember what she named him, but she wouldn't listen when I'd tell her to stay away from his butt. She was only about 4. I would make her come in. I'd make her stay away from him for time outs.. put her in time out to try to get her to understand she couldn't get behind him, but nothing ever worked. She got her first real spanking after nothing else worked, and then she stayed out from behind him. We finally got rid of him, there was no taming him. He was just mean. Why were you wondering that? I love you too, Bonnie. :)
I didn't do anything much today. Just stayed in again and watched the weather from the window. What did you do today? I love you too, Bonnie :)
Yes, I did. I saw the storm chasers chase their way right up to that f-5. The morons. *laughs* You know when they got turned around? When they hit that dirt road and were looking at the map to see if there was a bigger road out from it.. they drove spang into the path of that tornado. Shew! I love you too, Bonnie. :)
You could have called, I wouldn't have been mad. I probably wouldn't have heard the phone though, I was zonked. Sorry you were worried. I love you too. :)
It's almost 1 a.m. now. I bet you are all sleeping. I love you too. :)
You won that bet, I never ever got 100 ecards in one day in my life, how neat that was! Thank you! I love you too. :)
You managed it, I got them all! Thanks! I love you too. :)
I do know. Thank you for taking the time to say it, that made me feel good. :)
I love you too puddinhead. :)
*laughs* A card? It dawned on you like that? Right out of the blue? When did it occur to you to send 99 more? That was neat, thanks so much!! I love you too. :)
Yes, the blue flowers are pretty.. and I did peek at my email but I didn't open the cards until today. There were so many and I was sooo sleepy, I didn't want to miss anything, so wanted to wait 'till I was wide awake. How neat that was! I love you too. :)
You know, I got all the cards, but there wasn't one poem on any of them, just the photo and your note. So no need to be sorry about the Knight, it's all good. :) I love you too. :)
Yes. I'm home, I'm just sitting here wondering what I could go get to eat right fast, and answering your ecards. I love you too. :)
Cool, then you can go grave yarding with me some this summer! Yehaw!! I love you too. :)
You know I had to try it, don't you. You're right. It can't be done. But.. why would anyone want to do that? I love you, Bonnie. :)
Yes! I checked! See? I think I might even make a passing grade on this quiz, too!! I love you too, Bonnie! :)
Aww.. thank you Bonnie, that was sweet of you to say. They're good to me too.. just today Mallory snuggled up to me on the couch to keep me warm. I have a good life. You all make me happy. I love you too. :)
Those things are expensive. Are you gonna get one? I thought you didn't like dogs, that you were more of a cat person. I see you with a bald cat. *laughs* ever see those? I love you too Bonnie. :)
I'm sorry, I should have opened at least a couple of them from you last night. I love you too. :)
Okay.. I did enjoy them, they were wonderful, thank you so much! I love you too! :)
Those were the sweetest compliments Bonnie. You're a good person. I love you too, very much. Thank you for taking all that time to send me all those cards.. I can't believe you sat there and did that, that took a lot of time and energy. Give the boys a kiss for me, maybe you can come visit tomorrow. :) I don't know how bad the roads are supposed to be, so if you get out be careful. Thanks again, for all the cards, I'll keep them on the fridge here forever. I love you! G'nite!
P.S. I'm waiting for my grade now!
February 24, 2008
Dreaming
I've been having some pretty vivid dreams, I had this first one a couple of nights ago, about Dad.
I dreamed i was in an old country store, but it was a store/elmo greer's/someone's apartment all at the same time.
I dont know how i found it or went into it, but it had a big old wooden square counter in the middle where the clerk
stands inside and i was standing there, looked around and there was a bed over in the corner of the store, lisa was in
it sleeping with Tristan. She was snoring up a storm and the baby was sleeping too.
I turned when the door opened, and in walked Dad with some guy from greers, they were talking shop, i dont know who the
guy was. Dad looked up at me and I said, Dad!! Oh my GOD Dad!
He looked at me puzzled and said what on earth? The other guy just stood there, and then Lisa was up there with us and
someone else was on that bed sleeping wtih Tristan, I dont know who it was. Anyway, lisa knew the guy dad was with and
they started talking and joking around and I was torn between being mad at dad for being there when he was supposed to be
dead, had he tricked us.. I wanted to know what was going on..
I got kind of grufff and said Dad, you know full well that you've been "dead" since July. Now here you are just fine,
what's going on?
He smiled then laughed at me and said you think i'm a ghost don't you. I am NOT a ghost Jute, I'm here, I'm as real as
you are, and I'm NOT dead.
With that he grabbed my hands and started to dance with me like he used to do when I was a kid, humming his own music,
trying to waltz with his big clumsy feet, those big brown eyes were trying so hard to make me feel better.
Stan was standing there watching, not believing what he was seeing, and the guy from elmo greers tried to cut in,
but I didn't want anything to do with him, he seemed like a jerk to me and so I pretended I didn't know what he was on
about and I said sure you can cut in and I moved away from him and Dad both so they could dance together,
and the guy said nooooo, and I said yeaaaahhh, and so he grabbed Lisa instead, trying to mimick dad with lisa dancing,
him humming the music while me and dad and stan stood and watched.
Dad elbowed me, that way he used to do, quick elbows, and said, I'm not dead, don't be mad. I'm as real as you are.
I just nodded trying not to cry and he said Jute, I am not dead. I'm real, hear me.. elbow elbow, hear me?
I'm not dead Jute. I was so glad to see him but still angry for some reason and told him Dad, you WERE dead, I
SAW you with my own eyes, you were dead. He elbowed me some more still watching lisa waltz with that guy and he
said I am NOT dead, I'm here, I'm real and I'm just fine, don't be mad Jute, more elbowing, more hear me's, then
he was gone and I woke up.
The second one was night before last, I dreamed we got a letter from Mamaw. Enclosed in the letter was a deed for 2 acres of land that adjoined her old place at Grays. She said in the letter that she'd bought it secretly and she wanted to be buried on it.
Mom, Lisa, Me and Dips went up to take a look at it, and I just spouted out, "Hey, she wanted to be buried here, and me and Lisa will never use it for anything, why don't we just have Mamaw, Papaw and Dad moved here, and make this our family cemetery?"
Mom just looked at me and said, "Duh". *laughs* I guess that's what we were doing there in the first place.
That's all I can remember of that one.
Mallory's Donuts!
She got up extra early Thursday morning to make some donuts for her classmates. They were a hit, too! Good job, Mallory!!
Nick's Dance Last Night
Maegan was playing in another room when Nick came in, and when she heard his voice she came just a runnin' - she loves him so - but when she saw him in that suit, she stopped abruptly, stared, then took back off to hide. She's never seen him like that before and it scared her. LOL She never would come back out either until he left! So strange!
February 21, 2008
Eclipse
I finally got to see one! How beautiful that was. It just screamed "God". Things like that reaffirm His existance... so beautiful. The only thing I think that
could have moved me more, would have been to see that from the ocean.
I bundled Mikyla and Mallory up good and let them go see for a few minutes.. they thought that was pretty neat.. it was glowing - Mikyla wanted to know if she could make a wish on it. I told her sure, make one and see what happens. I don't know if Mallory wished for anything more than to go inside out of the cold dark. Bless her heart that child is afraid of her own shadow.
I did get some pictures of it.. and as they only seem to do for me they turned out looking either phallic, or like a butt.. or like a worm.
Maegan is sleeping, has been for a while... but Mik and Mal just drifted off to sleep a few minutes ago. Yesterday, we sent Mikyla to school, but the nurse called by 10 for us to come get her, she was sick.. she'd been fine the night before, but with the flu one day you're okay the next sick again. The doctor would only excuse her from school for it for one day. That was odd. We sent her again today, and again by 10 she was sick and had to come back home. I'm not sending her tomorrow. Doctor's ecuse or not, she needs to get over this.
Mallory had to go to the doctor today to have bloodwork done for her Depakote level. I'll call tomorrow to see if everything's okay, though I imagine they'd have called if her Depakote dose needs changed. The doctor gave her an excuse to be out all day. 1 day for the flu.. 1 day for blood work. Crazy.
Here's a photo of our cousins - this is George's wife, and their grandson.
I've never met them, but thought some of you family members out there might like to see them.
I'm hungry tonight, and don't have a right to be. We had pizza. These kids love take out and I SWEAR I'm not a bad cook, but beyond sausage and bacon, biscuits and once in a while mashed 'taters, they wont, just will NOT eat home cooked food. It makes me CRAZY because when they do decide to eat something cooked here, all 3 kids have to have something different than what I fixed. It's maddening! Last night I asked them what they'd like for dinner. Mallory said "Cinnamin Rolls." Mikyla said "Homemade Cookies." Maegan said "Chicken Nuts." (McNuggets). I know Gramma's usually cave about things, but that was rediculous. I'll be darned if I'm going to McDonalds when I have a table full of perfectly good Cinnamin Rolls and home made cookies! *laughs*
I have to say, I'm feeling sort of blue tonight. My stomach sinks every time I think about Dad. It sinks every time I look at his picture, hear a song he liked. I think sometimes I'm going to be okay then at other times, I just know I'm not gonna be okay at all. Tonight's the latter. I miss him so much. I didn't realize it was possible to miss someone like this. I think we were all feeling like that today because Mikyla left a post about him on her journal...Bonnie emailed me and just out of left field sent me a memory she had of him back when she was working at KFC...Mallory mentioned him in the den earlier.. Maegan even remembered him when she noticed his picture in my checkbook - she said it was "Grampaw".. that was neat, I wondered if she still remembers him. Mom said she'd gone outside to tell him g'nite earlier. I didn't talk to Lisa, but she's always got Dad on her mind, so I'm sure today wasn't any different. I got so tickled at Mom on Valentine's day, I told her I was gonna put what she said on here, but then I told her I wouldn't, but I'm going to anyway.. it was too funny. She was really down over Dad being gone..we were on the phone, and it was so cold Valentine's day, just cut you to the bone cold. She was telling me how horrible it was that she wouldn't get a Valentine from him, no flowers, no candy.. so sad too that she couldn't give him something, and I felt so bad for her.. then she mentioned she'd put flowers on his grave. That surprised me because it was only about 10 in the morning, I said "Mom, you were at the cemetery already this morning?" Her quick, blunt reply, so typical of Mom, "Hell no, I didn't go up there, I left them on his memorial page. I miss your Dad, but I don't miss him that much, it's COLD out there!" I thought I was gonna die I laughed so hard at her. I could imagine Dad standing there behind her cracking up too, then calling me a moron for even thinking about her being up there with flowers and it that cold, that early.
I'm ready for Spring. There were some Daffodils out there by the white rock yesterday, but I think this icy rain we got today probably killed them. And night before last the frogs were just going to town outside my window, THAT's a wonderfully welcome sound when I'm tired of winter, but they're quiet tonight.
I talked to Mikyla's Nana earlier.. her daughter Kristy was in the hospital yesterday. She got to come home this evening. She's been so sick. Diane said she has COPD. If Kristy is 30, I'd be surprised. If she's in her 30's it's not by much. I think she's pretty close to Sarah's age.
Sarah called tonight. She sounded pretty good, not up, not down, just normal. She said they were working on a school, something about underpinning it. I guess schools there must be different than here. Trailors, maybe? I dunno, didn't ask, but she sounded alright. The girls have got to where they wont talk to her much, or for long at a time. Maegan wont talk to her at all, she just holds the phone a second then pushes it away.
The girl's banquet at school is tomorrow, but we're not going to go. Mikyla said she doesn't feel like it and Mallory doesn't like things like that. They can get their trophies Friday if they have school. We got their Cheerleader/Kitten's pictures today, they're beautiful. That wall of fame is filling up fast! I'm gonna need 2 more small shelves for it for their trophies.
I got a few pictures of Maegan the other day.
I think I'm gonna go get some sleep now, or try. I'm tired and 6:30 comes early. Love you all, stay safe, and stay warm. G'nite!
February 14, 2008
Happy Valentine's Day!
I hope everyone had a nice day, got something from your sweethearts, and for your sweethearts.. we sure did. :)
Lisa and Mom sent the biggest lot of candy and stuffed bears! The girls really enjoyed everything, and I had to get some pictures. Mom, Lisa, Nick, thanks for everything, and I'm glad you liked your gifts too! Love you!
Sarah called them tonight, she said she hadn't sent them anything yet, but told them to watch that mail that she'd send them something soon. Their nana called too, to tell them Happy Valentine's day.
It was a pretty good one! I'm glad it's bedtime though. I think there's school tomorrow, but Mik wont be going, she has the flu now, but Mallory is still alright. Maegan is all better now, thank God!
Stay warm and safe everyone, Love you all, G'nite!
February 12, 2008
The Past Coupl'a Days
Maegan has the flu, Mik and Mal are just fine. They're all sleeping soundly now, I'm trying to be quiet so this keypad doesn't wake them, it's late, and oh it's cold outside. The furnace hasn't quit in hours.
Bon called this evening, she saw an acquaintance on the news who was allegedly arrested for having something to do with a meth lab. There were quite a few arrested in the county for that today. I'm glad they're getting caught, they need stopped. They're destroying lives, families, everything they come in contact with. Sort of like...dry rot.. only faster.
Guess.. just guess who is student of the month again? If you said Mallory, you would be Correct! Congratulations, Mallory, you go, girl!!!
We haven't heard from Sarah in a while, I think the last time was Thursday evening. She talked to Mikyla and Mallory but Maegan and I were sleeping, so she told Dips she'd call back so she could talk to her. Dips said he told her Maegan had the flu. She told him all about Roy being sick with something and hung up but that was the last we heard from her. I asked Diane tonight if they called her recently she said yes that Roy called today for something to do with a repair on his truck. She said she'd asked if they'd talked to the girls in a while but he said no, that they were going to call tonight, they've had trouble with their cell phone, but they never did call.
It's getting late, I need to get to bed, mornings start sooo early.
G'nite, world!
Crazy Hats!
They look like.. the Pope meets the KKK, but didn't they really do a good job on them?! *laughs* Way to go, Girls!!
February 10, 2008
Bridge To Tarabithia
I watched it with the girls tonight and I have to tell ya, that one made me cry. I sat there sniffling and snubbing and the girls did too, how sad it was, but how beautiful. If you get a chance, watch it, it's a good movie. The girls loved it.
I Saw The Prettiest Thing Today...
I've been waiting for months, and today, I saw Julia smile!! Talk about beautiful, that just warmed my heart!
Their Crazy Hats
They're bored, stir crazy, but with all the viruses out there, and all they've had the past couple of months, and have now, we decided not to get them out, but keep them in and keep them occupied. Today, they made crazy hats. When all that glue dries, we'll finish them. :) As you can see, Maegan spent more time worrying about the glue on her little hands.. it drive that child nuts! *laughs*
After having strep last week, Maegan's temp went up to 102.5 a couple of nights ago and I couldn't get it down to save me. Nothing was working, not even a lukewarm bath. Back to the doc again, swab tests, she has the flu. No one else has it, so I don't know where she got it, she's not been out - except to go to the doctor last week. She probably got it there.
Anyway, her fever's down, she's doing great today, and now is sleeping like a baby. She cracked me up today, she got one of my bras, Dips saw her and asked her what she was doing, she just kept struggling with the bra, and told him she was "puttin' on Mammy's boobies."
February 08, 2008
It's Almost Over
Romans 12:19
King James Version
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.
When someone hurts your child it's difficult to accept that verse. It's almost impossible to keep your mind from fantasizing about all the ways you could retaliate, or 'get even' - not that there could ever be an 'even' when your child was hurt.
Today, I looked into the eyes of evil, and he dropped his head. For a brief second I saw fear there, and shame and above all, I saw guilt.
In that instant of eye contact, I stared hard, asking why with my own eyes, and I saw those answers in his, then shook my head at him as he lowered his head in defeat. I felt two things. First, great disgust for not only what he used to be, but also for what he is today...and then to my surprise, I felt pity. Pity that the once mighty, frightening, violent being has been brought to this -
oh not that kind of 'forgiveness' pity, I know I am supposed to, I know I'll never feel that one - I mean a kind of contemptuous pity.
I sat 2 rows behind him. That once fat bulging head, wizened now, that of an old old man, broke out into a sweat. I wondered if my eyes were burning him. He kept rubbing the back of his head with his hand. I just wondered, wow, it's only been what...10 years - if that. Ten years did this to him? Aged him 60 years, took the color from his hair, the glow of health from his face, leaving this pasty faced shell?
Not in any of my fantasies could I have achieved this level of 'even'.
February 06, 2008
Maegan
She's a trip! She's not yet 3, wont be until August, but already she can count to 7! Mercy she keeps us laughing, she puts that hand on that hip, shakes it at us and starts talking 100 miles an hour, telling us what's what. She loves putting on "makeups" - it's her favorite thing to do.
Joel
Joel is getting tall. He's being stubborn about having his pic made this week, not agreeable at all. He likes his television and his playstation and he's gotten to where he doesn't want to go outside for long at a time, he'd rather be in playing his games.
Tristan
This little guy is a sweet heart. He's looking, staring, grinning and downright chuckling now. He still gets pretty vexed if his bottle isn't put into his mouth as fast as he thinks it should be, but I think the colicky crying is over. He's starting to creep and scooch to get where he wants to go.. ohh man, look out Bonnie!